Friday, 29 August 2014

What helps me with my depression

Hi everyone, 


As you know I'm doing health and fitness on my blog at the moment. 

As promised I will explain what helps me get through my depression anxiety and panic attacks. 

Meet Millie 

So when my depression and panic attack reach a head I could not leave my house not even to collect the mail from the letter box outside our building. 

It had been at least 2 month since I had left my house. When my fiancé at the time said the magic words I had so longed to hear for years "I think it's time we got a dog". So we looked far and wide and found Millie she was 1 and a half when we got her.  She gave me a reason to leave the house, she need to be walked and she needed to go to the toilet. This gave me a reason to leave the house. I had to look after Millie. From day one Millie bonded with me and she seems to understand my pain, when I spent hours crying she cuddled me even licked my tears a few times. She new she was here to look after me and to this day she still helps me in ways she and I will never understand. We would go out for walks and she wouldn't go to far as she seemed to know I was on edge. 

Therapy 

My job at the time caused my depression I was bullied for having dyslexia. I was referred to occupational health and to a wonderful man called Adrian who gave me help in many ways including
cognitive behavioral therapy. Now before I had any help I was a complete sceptic. I was brought up to not show my feelings and as you know my family have disowned me for having depression as I should snap out of it! "It's not a real thing" etc. but I had weeks of therapy and I could finally go out the house further and further and more importantly I could understand I can not control other people and I can only control me and what I think. Although some times I let my thought run at a thousand miles a hour. 

Adrian also taught me ways to control my panic attacks and how to stop them coming to a head. He gave me classes on my mind and what was happening when I would get in to a cycle of over thinking and negative thoughts. 

Medication

I was put on what the Americas call Prozac. I was again not sure what to think about being put on "happy pills". But these have helped me they seem to clear my mind and just upping my mood. 
I am still on these tablets and I hope to come off them soon. If you are hesitating about the medication I don't think I could have gotten through my depression with out them in my life. Feel free to email me missljbeauty@googlemail.com 

My now hubby 

My gorgeous man, he has helped me in so many ways he has held me whilst I cried, whilst I told him I didn't want to live any more. He has listen to my same stories over and over and over my worries and nightmares. He has had sleepless night with me crying endlessly. I honestly don't think anyone else would have been there for me like he was. 

My friends gem and Michelle.

This is a strange statement but I was very lucky that my friend Mic was going through the same thing as me and I had her to talk to spending endless hours on the phone to each other explaining what was going on in our minds. Her worries were my worries and this made me feel like I'm not alone. 

Gem was always a phone call away even with her pregnant or with a little baby to just listen to me and make me feel normal again by just talking to me. 

Both these girls are another reason I am here today writing this. 

Bloggers

Yes this one will seem strange to but in my darkest time I started missljbeauty and meet some wonderful people. I have to mention some very special girls @aaamylouxo @gemzbyemz @glitterbugsbqt @shellywelly28 @kiniapinky there are so many more who have helped me but I'd be here all day writing them in here. I never felt along as I had my twitter girls to talk to and it was lovely to have them to chat to. These girls are so lovely. 

My blog gave me a purpose to focus on something that I loved and to my surprise people wanted to hear what I had to say. So maybe I am worth something. 

Fitness

I have always liked to work out and getting back in to fitness without pressure was a great way to pass my long days stuck in my mind. This gave me a escape for a hour a day. Space to think about nothing but the job in hand. 

Meditation  

I used to be a actress in another life or so it feels. I would YouTube a guided mediation when I started to feel a panic coming in and lie on my living room floor and let this wash over me and try to unravels my complicated thoughts. I really recommend this I think mindfulness is a great ap. 

Loving my job & Moving house

I left my "dream job" this was the best thing for me. Not because I hated the job but I had to get out of my situation I can not work for a organisation who do not understand my dyslexia and have no willing to help me only make matters worse. My hubby was disgusted with my treatment so applied for another post a hours drive away from where we worked which also gave us a free house so less pressure on me to have to find a job.  
I know this is not easy for everyone and this is just what helped me. Life is to short why stay somewhere that is making you misrable. My family have never understood why I would leave such a good job but for me this was the best thing to do. 

As I write this I hope this helps at least one of you. I will do another post in this as this one is getting long 

Feel free to email me if you are having issues and want to talk to someone. 

Missljbeauty xoxox 

Tuesday, 26 August 2014

Lindt hello bars

Hi everyone 


How are you all? 

As you know I'm on a health and fitness kick but some things in life you just can't say no to choclate ! And you can never say not to lindt right?! 

I was sent these 
 

Yes it a bar of each of the new http://lindthello.com range! 

Here's me sampling the cookies and cream mini or as I like to call it heaven in a choclate bar! 

It's so creamy and delish, I have to say the bigger bars are made for sharing as they are crazy sweet and tasty but I defo couldn't mange one myself,

I haven't tried them all yet but so far I have tried 
Cookies and cream 
Caramel brownie 

Both have been amazing caramel brownie had the most delish runny caramel inside it, the milk choclate in the bars is so nice I normally find lindt a tiny bit bitter but not these at all. 
I'm excited to try all the rest. 

I tried a peice of the strawberry cheesecake bar my hubby happily demolished but I really don't like strawberry a in choclate and this was no exception. 

My new puppy photo bombing me ! 

Have you tried these yet? 

What's your favriote? 

Missljbeauty xoxo 

Thursday, 21 August 2014

Health and fitness - mental health

Hay everyone 


How are you all? 

So as you know I'm doing a health and fitness on here just now and it wouldn't be fair to not mention mental health as it has such a impact on my life. I have been diagnosed with depression, panic attacks and anxiety. 

I have been having more good days than bad lately, but when my bad day hit they can be quite destroying. 

This in turn makes my attitudes to thing change a lot. 

I have always been a worrier, I am a over analyser and worry about the smallest thing. 
Unfortunately I have had a few huge things to think about lately and this is why I am trying to turn my life around with focuses on health and fitness. 

I am on my own this week for the first time since my depression got really bad and I didn't want to continue. My now husband is away on his much deserved belated stag do. He has been my rock and to be honest I'm not sure how he stayed with me or married me two months ago. 

Because I'm on my own my mind wanders back and forth to bad places. 
All of which I have no control over. 

Why does my family not want me? 
Why am I not got enough for him? 
Do people like me? 
What if I never find any friends? 
Why did I hate my "dream job" 
Did I let her bully me? 
Why am I not pretty? 

These are just some of the questions that fall round and round and round in my head waiting for the answer which is, on a bad day very negative and on a good day I can control my thoughts. I realise that I am letting the past define me. 

I was very lucky to find the blogging world as I have met so many lovely people through it. 
I never started blogging expecting anyone to want to read what I say. 

When I was young and I went through a life shattering event I would write songs and poems to try and get the pain out. Now I find I can talk to you and I feel better. 

I know if you are not a sufferer of depression or anxiety you won't be able to quite understand how it feels and don't worry I don't run off cry if you make a depression joke. 

I have found I need to make big changes in my life starting with cutting the negative people out and concentrating on what is good about my life and life in general. I will always be just me! And I need to find the inner strength to just be me. 




My next post I will explain what helps me woth my depression and how I am slowly getting better. 

Have you suffered with a mental illness? 

Missljbeauty 



  

Monday, 18 August 2014

Fitness update results with lucy

Hi everyone,


I'm still on health and fitness on my blog, 

So today let's talk how to stay in shape the easy way. 

I use results with Lucy


I've been using this program on and off since it came out! I have a monthly subscription for £12.99 and I haven't cancelled it since is signed up as I really feel I will always use this in some form. 

So let's talk results with Lucy and why I choose this program. First off I love that you can choose the work outs you do from a huge selection, from HIIT ballet to abs like slabs. Lucy and her personal training the amazing Cecilia do the workouts with you and you here Lucy struggle some times which is great as you believe she works hard with you and is not a celeb jumping in the bandwagon.

You can use the preset  play lists which links different videos together to make a full program or you choose your videos to make your own workout, I do wish there was a way to make your own playlist though. There are new videos every week. 


I normally do Lucy's play list there is one for every day of the week. 

I have to say I love Cecilia who is the personal trainer, she is so nice but kicks your ass in to shape 
Find out more about her here.
http://www.resultswithlucy.com/discover/my-personal-trainer/

The best thing about results with Lucy is you get a high intensity work out from the comfort of your own home, no gym fees no stress about people staring at  you working out. Plus it really has videos for everyone. 

Have you tried results with Lucy? 
missljbeauty xoxo

Sunday, 10 August 2014

Health and fitness week - diet

Hay everyone, 


How are we all today? 

So my honeymoon has been on my mind. 

Which means it's time to kick my health and fitness up a gear! So this week on my blog will be health and fitness week! 

So here is what I'm doing to my diet to help. 

I'm on http://collagen-shots.com/be-skinny-drink-me 
Shakes. 

These come in two flavour banana & butterscotch and my fave strawberry




Now I make mine with low calorie unsweetened almond milk. I add some frozen berry to make it even better! As you know I was tested not long ago for my food intolerances and I'm delight I can continue having my shakes. That makes the shake under 140 cals

So I have been replacing either breakfast or lunch with my shakes.

What I love about these is they are crazy filling Which is great as I get no mid morning or mid afternoon snack attacks. As you know I have tired loads of diets and this one is a keeper for me! 

I will still be detoxing a few times a year but this is a very good long term solution 

Here is what's in the shakes


Ingredients
peaPea Protein: Pea protein is a form of protein powder, valued for its high digestibility (90-95%), low potential for allergic responses. Pea protein has a light texture and slightly sweet taste, which mixes well in solution. It is less allergenic than soy and has no negative health controversies associated with it.

GlucGlucomannan: The European Food Standards Agency (EFSA) considers that 1 gram of Glucomannan drank with 1 – 2 glasses of water gives a feeling of fullness. Glucomannan can hold up to 100 times its own weight in water. It is a bulk – forming agent and may have a positive influence on blood sugar levels by delaying stomach emptying. These actions also promote health cholesterol levels, thereby supporting cardiovascular health.

InulinInulin: Inulin has many health benefits. Inulin increases calcium absorption and possibly magnesium absorption, while promoting the growth of intestinal bacteria. In terms of nutrition, it is considered a form of soluble fibre and is sometimes categorized as a prebiotic. Due to the body's limited ability to process fructans, inulin has minimal impact on blood sugar. It is considered suitable for diabetics and potentially helpful in managing blood sugar-related illness. 

green tea2Green Tea: Green tea is a widely recognized anti oxidant and may help in the fight against disease. A green tea extract containing polyphenols and caffeine has been shown to induce thermogenesis and stimulate fat oxidation, boosting the metabolic rate 4% without increasing the heart rate.

Stevia: Stevia extracts have up to 300 times the sweetness of sugar, it is low in calories, low-carbohydrate, low-sugar food alternative. Because stevia has a negligible effect on blood glucose, it is an ideal natural sweetener for people on carbohydrate-controlled diets.


Have you tired these shakes? 
Missljbeauty xoxo 

Thursday, 7 August 2014

Victoria secrets Haul 2014

Hay everyone,

How are you all ? 

So once or twice a year I order a Victoria secrets , I always do one for my birthday! I love there clothes and I find it alot cheaper to buy from the USA than here. There are always great sales and discount codes 

Here is what I bought 


Here is what I paid.

white T shirt $4.19
Black trousers $13.99
Hoodie $20.99
Yoga pants crystals $20.99
Yoga pants hawian 13.99
Grey shorts $13.99
3/4 dark grey 10.49

Total $98.63
Shipping $33.99

Total $132.62 In pounds £79

What a bargain!!!!! 

I bought everything in size small and if im honest and I could exchange some of the items I would Im a uk size 8/10 but the small seems really big to me? lucky its work out gear so its not like I want it super tight but just bear this in mind when ordering. 

I wish I had bought another hoodie soooo comfy 

Do you love Victoria secrets ? 

MissLJBeauty xoxo

Tuesday, 5 August 2014

And the winner is......


Hay everyone

How are you all???

So My big Giveaway is over! BOO

But I hear you ask who is the winner???


Its the gorgeous

Hello!

http://broganjay.blogspot.co.uk/

This was picked at random by rafflecoper

Congrats huni, Send me a email to claim your prize !

Missljbeauty@googlemail.com


I've reached so many mile stones that Im feeling thelove and going to do another giveaway starting this weekend so keep your eyes peeled for this!


Dont forget to check out Brogans blog think I will have to try the 30day blog challenge I love her answers 

Love MissLJBeauty xxxx